My love-life has been in ups and downs lately, but not after the last week – everything is not gonna be the same again.
“Well I'm, I'm Mr. Lonely
I'm Mr. Caught up in between
Well you, my only sunshine
My good and bad times
It isn't fair
Yeah, I'm in love
And I'm at war
Inside my head I'm
Just not quite sure
I'm not quite sure yet
Is this the one?
That I've been waiting for all my life
Could this be the one?
That I've been lookin for all my life
Could this be the one?
Black smoke pours out your lips
And I breathe it in
I breathe you in
My beautiful girl,
My beautiful sin” - The Calling – The One (Bonus Track)
Prologue
I always wondered when I am going to be in a forever lasting relationship, for eternity. Yes its old fashioned, and that’s the kind of relationship I am looking for, the one the partners will be together till truly death do them apart. Colored by Loyalty, Passion, Sacrifices, Caring, Protectiveness, Understanding, Happiness, Compassion, Harmony, A small dose of Drama, A bigger dose of Jealousy, Honesty, Mystery, Lust, and more Loyalty.Yes one may think that what I want is something perfect, which truly what I want, I’m a perfectionist, so it is natural to be having a high standards for a relationship.
I always wanted..…
Someone who would make my heart beats faster when I hear their voice on telephone
Someone whom I will be nervous when I am around them or when I am going to see them
Someone, I would choose my words precisely and weight them before I speak for fear of saying something imperfect
Someone I would care and protect them in return
Someone who can take my worries, pain, and depression by just saying a sincere compliment
Someone I can show off my friends, be proud, and make them feel envious
Someone who will support my every mistake and stand by my misfortunes
Someone who knows everything about me and will proceed to know more
Someone who is fun yet downright sophisticated
Someone whom I can wipe away their tears and shield them behind my back
Someone I can look into their eyes and say that I love them without getting bored of saying it
Someone I can hold their hands every time for years and still feel the electricity it triggers between us
Someone I would shiver when I hear someone calls their name
Someone I would start a fight defending them
Someone whom when they look at me, leave me breathless
Someone I would stay up all night waiting for them to come online
Someone whom I will be willing to change for
Someone when they surprise me, will leave me speechless
Someone who will make me feel excited just by smiling
Someone who will make my heart pounce just by doing something silly as liking a photo of mine on Facebook
Someone who will not get bored of my clinginess or my constant phone calls
Someone who will tolerate my jealousy and would erase my suspicion
Someone who will keep an eye for me only, even in the presence of other good looking guys
Someone who will know my tinniest details, like what my favorite drink is, or what my favorite couch at my home is, or my favorite type of chocolate
Someone who is a wild romantic at heart to the point of being cheesy
Someone who would make me feel my Adrenaline rush, when they are away
Someone who will give me rupturing butterflies in my stomach when we touch
Someone I can cuddle and hug them when they are sad, afraid, or alone
Someone who will care to watch my favorite TV series to catch up with me
Someone who will go through my Blog, Facebook, or my texts from start to end
Someone I will save their messages on a secret folder and don’t get worn off reading them
Someone whom I can forgive even if they triggered my ugliest bad side
Someone who will be able to forgive me at all costs
Someone whom will make me shameless doing crazy stuff with them
Someone whom I will feel confident and brave around them to gain their pleasure
Someone whom is secretive to the grave
Someone who is like my first love
Someone whom I can be their savior
Someone who will want the same
Someone who will care to read this
As you can see I do know what I really want and I do have kind of high standards, and I am that determined to find that one, again.
I don’t think it will be hard to find that kind of person, as I found her before, and I’m sure I can find her again.
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Now I think that am very close to that someone, the last week I knew that someone could fulfill many things of the above.
So am hoping that this time will be right and true, successful.
If it is not, it’s just enough to make me happy till the end and continue searching again.
And Nothing Will Ever Be The Same Again.
So am hoping that this time will be right and true, successful.
If it is not, it’s just enough to make me happy till the end and continue searching again.
And Nothing Will Ever Be The Same Again.