Prologue

My love-life has been in ups and downs lately, but not after the last week – everything is not gonna be the same again.



“Well I'm, I'm Mr. Lonely
I'm Mr. Caught up in between
Well you, my only sunshine
My good and bad times
It isn't fair
Yeah, I'm in love
And I'm at war
Inside my head I'm
Just not quite sure
I'm not quite sure yet

Is this the one?
That I've been waiting for all my life
Could this be the one?
That I've been lookin for all my life
Could this be the one?

Black smoke pours out your lips
And I breathe it in
I breathe you in
My beautiful girl,
My beautiful sin” - The Calling – The One (Bonus Track)

Prologue

I always wondered when I am going to be in a forever lasting relationship, for eternity. Yes its old fashioned, and that’s the kind of relationship I am looking for, the one the partners will be together till truly death do them apart. Colored by Loyalty, Passion, Sacrifices, Caring, Protectiveness, Understanding, Happiness, Compassion, Harmony, A small dose of Drama, A bigger dose of Jealousy, Honesty, Mystery, Lust, and more Loyalty.
Yes one may think that what I want is something perfect, which truly what I want, I’m a perfectionist, so it is natural to be having a high standards for a relationship.

I always wanted..…

Someone who would make my heart beats faster when I hear their voice on telephone

Someone whom I will be nervous when I am around them or when I am going to see them

Someone, I would choose my words precisely and weight them before I speak for fear of saying something imperfect

Someone I would care and protect them in return

Someone who can take my worries, pain, and depression by just saying a sincere compliment

Someone I can show off my friends, be proud, and make them feel envious

Someone who will support my every mistake and stand by my misfortunes

Someone who knows everything about me and will proceed to know more

Someone who is fun yet downright sophisticated

Someone whom I can wipe away their tears and shield them behind my back

Someone I can look into their eyes and say that I love them without getting bored of saying it

Someone I can hold their hands every time for years and still feel the electricity it triggers between us

Someone I would shiver when I hear someone calls their name

Someone I would start a fight defending them

Someone whom when they look at me, leave me breathless

Someone I would stay up all night waiting for them to come online

Someone whom I will be willing to change for

Someone when they surprise me, will leave me speechless

Someone who will make me feel excited just by smiling

Someone who will make my heart pounce just by doing something silly as liking a photo of mine on Facebook

Someone who will not get bored of my clinginess or my constant phone calls

Someone who will tolerate my jealousy and would erase my suspicion

Someone who will keep an eye for me only, even in the presence of other good looking guys

Someone who will know my tinniest details, like what my favorite drink is, or what my favorite couch at my home is, or my favorite type of chocolate

Someone who is a wild romantic at heart to the point of being cheesy

Someone who would make me feel my Adrenaline rush, when they are away

Someone who will give me rupturing butterflies in my stomach when we touch

Someone I can cuddle and hug them when they are sad, afraid, or alone

Someone who will care to watch my favorite TV series to catch up with me

Someone who will go through my Blog, Facebook, or my texts from start to end

Someone I will save their messages on a secret folder and don’t get worn off reading them

Someone whom I can forgive even if they triggered my ugliest bad side

Someone who will be able to forgive me at all costs

Someone whom will make me shameless doing crazy stuff with them

Someone whom I will feel confident and brave around them to gain their pleasure

Someone whom is secretive to the grave

Someone who is like my first love

Someone whom I can be their savior

Someone who will want the same

Someone who will care to read this

As you can see I do know what I really want and I do have kind of high standards, and I am that determined to find that one, again.
I don’t think it will be hard to find that kind of person, as I found her before, and I’m sure I can find her again.

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Now I think that am very close to that someone, the last week I knew that someone could fulfill many things of the above.
So am hoping that this time will be right and true, successful.
If it is not, it’s just enough to make me happy till the end and continue searching again.
And Nothing Will Ever Be The Same Again.